Hi John, thank you so much for sharing. There are many beautiful videos of Gangaji and Papaji online: my favourite one is “The moment of choice”. I also cannot recommend more the book “The diamond in your pocket” by Gangaji. It is a beautiful summary of her teachings. I don’t know whether this would help you or not — we all have different paths and resonate with different teachings, but this one really landed for me and I don’t fully understand whwy. It spoke straight to my heart, using my words and my struggles, but beyond that, it showed me a different way of knowing. It is a very direct path and a pure lineage, accessible to all and welcoming all. It doesn’t require years of strenuous practice — it just requires maturity and fed-up-edness:) Have a look and let me know how it feels — I would love to hear. Blessings to you!